I caught myself by surprise a couple of weeks ago.  Being in the business of ‘motivating  and uplifting’ I was rather stymied by how quickly I spiralled down into feelings of gloom and inactivity – triggered by a very nasty bout of flu.  

Walking alongside wise friends this morning, I discussed this.  I told them of my regrets of just not trusting that I would feel much better in time and trusting that my body was in the business of ‘healing’ and actually it was alright to just let go, to surrender calmly.  If I had taken this approach, I would have been better in no time and without all the added drama around my frustrations.

I had berated myself for not being able to do the work that I wanted to and then I started ruminating on the idea of ‘what if I never get going again …’.  I lost sight of the fact that I really was unwell and then started focusing on the accompanying ‘feelings’ of lethargy, laziness and stagnation.  There was a whopping ‘pity party’ taking place!

And why am I telling you this?  Partly because I can see that it is so easy to over ride what our bodies are telling us.  There are very real times when it can only serve us well to stop expecting so much of ourselves and to give ourselves the time and space to recharge, to rest, to recuperate and to reset – knowing that the wave of focus, energy and action will arrive again.

However, some inner wisdom (that you absolutely DO have) will also tell you when you are wallowing in a ‘funk’ that is not serving you.  You do not want to be drifting into a malaise because of the stories that you are telling yourself about your circumstances.  There really are times when ridiculously small action steps need to be proactively taken in order to get going  – but you will know when that time happens. 

In short, there will be moments or longer, when you are feeling frustrated, fatigued and fed up.  But, what I do know for sure – that this is really alright!  It is to respect whether you are ‘unwell’ and need to nurture that – or whether you help yourself through with understanding and insightfulness. 

Take care.